Mama

Dear Mama,

It has been a while since I wrote to you. Consecutive matters are keeping my hands busy. I have always been wanting to visit you. I have been wanting to go there since forever, but works and distance kept me from doing so. I promise when I get the chance, I will do it. I always took a short moment to pray for you and reminisce every single thing about you. I really miss you Mama.

There was this one time, when I just abruptly broke into tears. It probably was the tiredness and the load of works that made me stressed out and cry. I can't be happy, every single playful joke I heard hurts me and every word that people said just don’t make any sense. I guess it all just came bursting out and I cried hysterically.

I never thought that, this point will come some time or another. I always forget all the glum when I’m at work. Friends surrounding me replace all those with glee but at that time, everything just went bleak.

There was time like this where I cried a thousand tears for you after you’re gone and it kills me that it happens again. It pains me. It really does, being slapped by the realization, yet again, that you’re gone.

I'm sorry if this was depressing to anyone, I just need some place to channel out all this negativity inside me.